making amends

Much has happened in the past few days. I've come to many a terms concerning the battle within how it has pushed its way out. I realize how much fighting I've been doing and not alot of praying. My soul has been overworked by many hardships but I live and love to fight another day. Mom and I are on better terms having prayed last night and though I feel that my father and I will probably be indefinitely on the edge of our relationship... I have garnished some truth. Truth is I have been unloving, uncompassionate, and bitter towards many because I've been blaming God for my insufficiencies and not giving him his due. I was reading in my devotion the other day and blessed by the verse in Matthew 6:21- "Where you tresure is there will your heart be also." Unfortunately my heart has not been solely focusing on Christ and what I could do to bring him glory rather on my current state. I've been trying to find a way out of myself and God has been holding his arms out this entire time. Then in further readings an excerpt from the hymn "Be Thou My Vision" caught my attention.
Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise
Thou mine inheritance, now and always
Thou and thou only, first in my heart
High king of Heaven, my tresure Thou art.

Having sung this many a times before I remembered the words but in light of everything of this past week.. it's truth rings new meaning...
I was truly blessed to read them again and know that on this earth we will experience my disappointments and fail other..but our life as Christians are to please and to treasure the one who will never disappoint. I encourage you and hope to learn myself to keep Christ first in our hearts