Amazing Run

Well today I was lame and didn't run this morning cuz my knee hurt and my back hurt. I've decided that since its raining i still have to be productive so i've started doing this indoor exercises... the ab lounge, push ups--my fav and then my least fav.. the squats with a nice medium of plies-- don't know how to spell but it's what ballerinas do at the bar.. so anyways i am super sore but i had a bad day at work..with almost losing all kinds of self-control-food wise.. I almost ate these really delicious-looking sausage egg rolls but kept to my salad.. unfortunately it's holiday season and the boxes of chocolate come flooding in.. no please don't... that's where i really lack self control. so I ate a bunch of chocolate.. BAD ASTRID! I know but it was there and so good. so anyway I felt like I really needed a run and so I got home and just ran. I ran up to lomita and back. not really far but I actually pushed myself to run most of the time and to run ---not my lame confortable jog.. i was nearly out of breath when i got back to the house and it was great.. As I ran lots of things came flooding thru my head. I was thanking God for every step i made-- and it's weird cuz normally my knee would be dying and I prolly should have ate it a couple of times... but I didn't. I actually got a taste of what Astrid can do when she trusts in God. So I'm running and it's dark but I don't care. I just run. By the way I think running at night is gonna be my new thing...well i'll try to run in the morning and at night--- uh starting in jan.. anyways... so I'm thinking about all the things I should be thankful for...family, salvation, friends, my Jesus...then I start praying for everyone in my life. I really feel this burden for my surrogate family--the Gardiner's, for Amy. Just the hurt and pain they have to endure during this season. I miss Mike terribly too..and I keep running.. and Ashley Rose pops into my head and all the things she's going thru-- her health, Joel's health, the robbery--at her parents...the violation they must feel...then the Baldwins and Grandma Moles and her surgery and the Baldwin clan and their stress levels...and O'roark and Leilani and the wedding-- where will they stay Lord, provide a home for them--a physical residence where they can grow...reminding them of the home they already have and is being prepared for them in Heaven, Then I think a bit about my Adam and his family and the love they've shown me. Thanks God. I say this run is amazing because I realize how evident God is in each of these peoples lives. That our Lord-- Lord whom we exalt and give all the praise to is holding each of their hearts, their hands and guiding them...