Wow moms is gonna be leaving tomorrow night and i won't se her for 2 months. i'm sad but happy. She keeps begging me to go, but I can't. -- Well part of me wants to say screw it i'll leave, but leaving is easy and staying is much harder-- we're most always suposed to chose the choice that seems more difficult b/c it'll be the better one in the long run right.. i'm starting to thing that's something people made up to keep from taking risks in their life... maybe i want to take these willy nilly-- that's right you read me--- willy nilly spontaneous seemingly escapist choices..right now i'm still trying to make a decision-- hell i'm even reading a book about making Godly decisions... still I find myself standing at the cross roads and where the road forks left or right i'm stuck still in quicksand... i was using this analogy the other day with adam and it seem more and more vividly link to my current situation..
I really would like to go back to the P.I. and visit all my cousins and family-- see my crazy grandma steal her cigs and break them-- sadly these days she prolly won't remember me doing this.. but i realize this is my mom's chance to break from her quicksand--she's actually nose deep so i'm really happy for this opportunity for her. I want this trip to jump start a new perspective in life for her.. 2months could mean regaining years for her. I pray that as she goes and though scared she may be, that our wonderful Lord will be with her and give her strength daily.
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God will be with her and yes tough places are where we are stretched, even to the point where we feel we are going to break, but God has good things for us and although there is pain it will lead to gain! Im praying for you and your mom. My house is always open to run to.
thanks and I may take you up on that but for now i'm gonna try to work on dad and my relationship
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