Discouraged

So today was a long day. It started out with work. Not bad really just that I was really tired all day. Don't know why I keep taking on all these things...oh that's right if I'm not at home I don't have to deal with family. So I make sure every night is full to the brim. As I'm rounding the u-turn to get to my apt, it's late again. Not tonight. Tonight I wanted it to be home more than anything. I wanted to crash. To fall asleep and not wake till who knows when. But I woke from my 20 minute nap got my things together and went to church. Normally I really enjoy going but today I had mixed feelings. First of all I didn't have anyone to teach or share with. Having in the past helped with the 7th and 8th graders, now I have no children. So I was planning on helping with the high schoolers but they were not to enthusied with that idea. What is with our kids these days! or anydays... I really don't know understand why they would come to church and not want the substance that we have to teach. So I was the game director and that was less than fun but something that needed to be done. I started to realize maybe it's time to let go of this part of my life. I have been feeling as if i need to be elsewhere and as the weeks continue I can't seem to focus on what's most important and it's the teen's relationship with Christ...but when the leadership is lacking or discouraged...what are we...am i to do. So an opportunity has risen... I'm not doing the awana program for now.. i'm on hiatus until futher notice or when there is more stability in attendee.. meanwhile i have enlisted myself to work specifically with possibly two of the teens who actually want to learn more about God. Please pray that this is what God wants me to do b/c if not I need to find a place where I can serve and if it isn't in my current capacity then I seriously need to be praying about another change...and more importantly God's will.