So this morning I woke up at 5am and well i'm still going which means either i'm gonna crash at some random time tomorrow or waking up early agrees with me again.
I was determined to not be lame with work so I started putting together all the stuff I've been putting off for weeks... After I ws done I realized how much time I have for devotions rather than my paltry 20-30 minutes I had a full hour. Wow was I missing God. He knew it too and here's what we talked about.
Everything
Astrid's silly fears when she should be trusting
Astrid's lack of drive when she's given every chance to thrive
Astrid's need to be dependent on God and him alone
And more...
It was a good morning..
As I was reading about Easter and the Crucified Christ I kept thinking about this time in my life-- this season- amazing that it is because of the hope that it boasts-- Christ died and he rose-- He rose He rose.. but in the past couple of years-- well to be honest I've not been one to enjoy any type of celebratory occassion-- it just never seemed enough-- but how foolish of me- Christ on the Cross not enough- Sinner Astrid-- It's more than enough... It's everything.
1st Corinthians 2.2 "I determined to know nothing among you except Christ, and him crucified."Paul understood the importance of this time. Could I say the same. This time of year has left a sorrowful sting in my heart with Mike's death but because of Christ crucified and risen-- Mike is living eternally with Him. This should give me inexpressible joy and it does but the missing portion --- that of my humanity clings onto twinges of sadness... I am trying to content more so than I have been and I hope to be braver for my dear friends those who also battle and miss their dear Mike-- who is most undoubtable always been God's dear Mike.
Loving you Amy, Elisabeth,Grace,O'roark, Leilani, Gardiners and all.
1 comment:
You don't have to be brave. It is perfectly normal to miss a friend who is gone. It is comforting to know that Im not the only one who still misses him. But it makes my longing for heaven even greater knowing that b/c of Christ's resurection I will see Mike again but more importantly I will see Christ, the one who loves me more than Mike did, and that is hard to imagine. Continue with your quiet time that is what we all need to do that is where growth, peace, and wisdom all will come from.
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