What another after school special!

Meant to write this days ago. Slacker that I am
Yeah so the affects of church on my dad wore off just as quickly as rain down a gutter. Fun times.
ABC easy as fight fight fight.. alpha bravo charlie...what the heck...-- don't expect people to get this just flowing for cathartic purposes.

Do and don't understand
this perpetual cycle
that you must command
the cool exterior
you front
that casual charm you flaunt
hasn't gotten me fooled
No you must be trippin'
hard. if you think
that the lies
coming through the smile
on your face
warrant compassion
though i fight
between loving you
and hating the hurt you do
you're my father
yet you're farther
can't you see
can't you be...
...eyes wide shut
heart beats slower
conditions of physicality
you pose-
truth- spirituality lacking
to be disclosed

Not too late.. this morning I was reading about the theives on the cross. Before our beautiful savior took his last breath--he forgave one of the theives--this gives me hope. Maybe I'll never see the day my dad actually lives his life for Christ instead of for himself--but that doesn't mean it won't happen. Though I continue to pray that the daily cycle of misunderstanding and strife lessen or that God gives me abundantly more patience than I currently have, I cannot help that sometimes there is a point when i will have to walk away. This day seems to be creeping sooner than later.